Life is a Battlefield

“We are all fighting our own battles in life” — Smartgirl Addiction is just another way of saying “there is something controlling me.”  I’ve been controlled by many things: food or lack of it, alcohol, drugs, sex, cigarettes, and last but not least Nicorette (nicotine gum).  I typically jump from crutch to crutch, but nicorette…

Keep On Keeping On

What a year 2016 has been so far.  It’s been a year of change for me — Big scary emotionally charged changes. Return to university (part-time online) (Still in progress) End contact with emotionally abusive ex-boyfriend Close my side fitness (personal training) business Start a blog (Still in progress) Change anxiety medication Renovate bedroom Quit…

Help ME!!!!!

I’ve changed my mind; I don’t want to do this… for the love of god will someone please give me a piece of nicorette!  What have I done; why am I even doing this to myself? Yesterday it all seemed such a great idea: Transformation — quit chewing my nicorette gum.  WTF!  I hate this….

A Discontinued Mess

Arggggg…. my head is complete mush today.  I`m spaced out, have brain zaps, can`t concentrate, feel restless and agitated, and (overshare) I can`t go to the bathroom.  Sounds wonderous doesn`t it!  This is my bodies reaction to tapering off anxiety meds, and today`s symptoms aren’t even that bad. I`ve been on medication for Generalized Anxiety…

I’m a Quitter

Everything is a blur today.  I woke up feeling ok; went for my run; showered and came to work.  Since 7:30am until right now (11:00am), everything feels wrong.  I feel wrong; the world feels wrong, and it’s all because I QUIT nicorette at 7:00pm last night.  I quit out of the blue, with no plan in…

Secret Addiction

Addiction is usually a word people associate with drugs, alcohol, or tobbaco.  There are also many cases of people suffering food, porn, internet, or TV addictions.  I on the other had have an addiction (or habit) that is fairly unuasual.  When I turned 27 years old, I gave up smoking.  I quit cold turkey, and I…