Controlling Emotions

Controlling my own emotions has never been easy for me.  In fact, I don’t think I’ve ever been able to fully control them.  I’m a strong feeler, and things excite, hurt, anger, etc me easily.  I think this is pretty common for women.  It seems men are much better at controlling their emotions, or at…

Babble Babble Babble, Wine, RHyme

100 bottles of wine on the wall, 100 bottles of wine….. what I wouldn’t give to have that wall.  WINE!  I love wine!  I am a self-professed wineaholic.   Perhaps my European heritage is to blame for this.  A love for wine most definitely could be genetic; at least that’s what I’m going to keep…

Doctor, Doctor… Give me the News

  It’s Doctor Day!  For the past few months, I’ve spoke little to nothing about my anxiety. Why or why?  Because I haven’t felt anxious.  Back in April, I decided to go back on meds.  It was a really hard decision to make, but in the end, it was the right one.  It took a…

A Treasured Gift

One must be kind to a gentle heart; For it feels more than it’s counterpart. Nothing compares to it’s undying love; The sweetest kiss; pure as a dove. So please beware and understand; It can shatter when placed in careless hands. And if the broken heart never mends; The love it shared comes to an…

My Life Transformed

Sadly, I have neglected my blog over the past couple of months with only random posts from time to time.  I started this blog over a year ago, and since that time, I’ve created some positive change in my life.  Slowly, I’ve crawled my way out of a very stagnant time in my life, and…

What a World We Live In — Junkified

There is nothing better than receiving an unasked for Dick PIC on a beautiful Friday morning.  Seriously, what has this world come to.  You can’t even have a drink with a man without him assuming that’s code for “please send me a picture of your flaccid penis.” Maybe I’m getting old, but is this really…

Firestorm

My view of the world is full of smoke and ashes.  The wildfires in BC have full cities evacuated, and over 40,000 of them have come to our city for refuge.  The air is thick with smoke, and everyone is feeling the stress of the situation.  I haven’t written in over a week because I’ve…

Smoke On The Water — AND Everywhere Else

The whole province is on fire, and we are living in the land of smoke and ash.  Thousands of people from cities all across British Columbia have been evacuated from their homes due to 100s of out of control wildfires.  High winds blow smoke and ash through the valley, and it’s near impossible to breathe…

False Hopes and Face Cream

It’s amazing the amount of money women spend on beauty products to make themselves feel pretty.  For me, it’s all about my hair.  I have very fine, curly hair, and it’s been greying for years.  I spend approximately $800 per year on colour and cut, and who knows how much on products to keep it…

At War With A Narcissist — Poetry

Clouds of thunder doom and gloom; Smell the imminent storm. I feel his presents; he will be here soon; From the devil he is born. Sheltered in a house of glass; Wide eyes brimming with tears. No where to run for he is fast; My body trembles in terrored fear. When day light breaks; he…

F Bomb Tuesday

If I had a nickel for every minute of the day I feel anxious, I’d have a lot of fucking nickels.  It would be a pain in the ass to have that many nickels to roll.  I would roll them though.  I’d roll them and take them straight to the bank — and then I…

This is Why We Do it

It’s been awhile since I’ve reflected on my blog.  Why do I write?  Who do I write for? etc. etc.  I think my reasons and audience have changed a great deal since I started my blog a year ago.  Some people have very specific blogs.  They have purpose behind why they write and what they…