Sadly, I have neglected my blog over the past couple of months with only random posts from time to time. I started this blog over a year ago, and since that time, I’ve created some positive change in my life. Slowly, I’ve crawled my way out of a very stagnant time in my life, and the rewards are starting to come to fruition. My journey has been filled with anxiety, fear, heartache, and a lot of confusion, but I’m thankful I pushed myself on. As my life is transforming, so will this blog. In three days, I start a week long staycation. During my time of work reprieve, I will be dedicating myself to reconnecting with the blogsphere and reshaping my blog.
Before I do, I want to share where I was and where I am now going. Just over a year ago, I was living a life that seemed void of meaning. I was a few years out of an abusive relationship, living in a home I had grown out of, and basically drinking myself out of boredom. No, I was not an alcoholic, but my only source of pleasure was my end of the day couple of glasses of wine. This was the beginning of my life change. There was no lightbulb moment or epiphany, just a desire for more. The problem was, I didn’t know what I needed or wanted — I just knew I wasn’t happy. With that in mind, I came off my anxiety medication, sold my trailer, bought a condo, enrolled in online university courses, and started dating again. Not all at once — it all happened over the course of about six months.
After moving into my condo, I had a melt down. I wasn’t coping, and I wasn’t really any happier. Feeling defeated, I went back on anxiety medication. Shortly after, I met a man who seemed to be everything I had been waiting for. I rushed in blindly because it felt good. I was too blind to see the red flags that were waved right in front of my face, and it ended with confusion and heart ache. At the same time, work pressured mounted, and I fell into a depression. That was about the time my blog posts became less and less frequent. Two months later, I end up where I am today. This post, however, is not about what has changed — that is a TBC…..
I’ve hit a major turning point in my life, and this post is a good-bye to the past. I’m now able to look back and see that everything that happen was necassary. I would not have come to this point without experiencing pain. PAIN = Growth. There is a fire in my heart now, and I’m filled with a new sense of passion. I’m excited to share my new self with all of my friends here, so stay tuned for a new story.