Five weeks. That is how long it took me to fall for what I thought was the man of my dream. One text message was all it took to break my heart.
Friday he was in my bed — today he says he needs some time to put the last few weeks into perspective. Monday he asked me to be his girlfriend, and he told me he was falling hard for me. Today he needs a minute to catch his breath. He wants to call me a in couple days.
Maybe my anxiety changed his mind so quickly, or maybe he likes to be in control. Whatever the case, he’s hurt me and the relationship. I’m not a toy. You can’t put me aside for a couple days to decide if you want to keep playing with me. You told me you knew what you wanted and that you were emotionally available for me. You lied.
Tears have fallen, and I’ve spent the day reliving all our conversations to try and figure out what I did wrong. I’m exhausted and broken. I should not have let my guard down. I should not have let you in. I need to sleep now.