Adding a Healthy Dose of Nerves to My Anxiety

Have you ever wondered what it is like in the mind of another person.  Maybe you are watching someone as they talk to you, and you think to yourself, “what’s going on in their head?”  I do this all the time.  It actually bothers me that I will never know what it is like to be someone else.   All I will ever know of this world is how I see it.   We have such a restricted observation of life.

I’ve always been fascinated by the human mind and how it works.  Primarily, how each person’s mind functions so uniquely.  Some minds are brilliantly creative, while others are analytical and logical.  Some minds prefer quiet reflection, and others need an abundance of external stimulation.   How does the mind decide it will experience empathy or apathy?   What makes us uniquely us?

I tend to do some deep thinking when I’m nervous.  Today, I have to sneak out of work before 11am to attend a job interview.  The job has the potential for a much larger salary, but I’m scared.  I don’t even have the job, and I’m already feeling sad about leaving where I’m at.  It would be great if my anxiety would leave me be for just today.  I want my rational thoughts to prevail over my fears.  First, I don’t need to leave the job I have if I don’t want to.  Second, it is good to look at new opportunities.  Third, I might actually like something new.  Finally, this is only an interview — I don’t have an offer yet, so my worries are premature.  Today is just a meeting.

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My anxiety is increasing by the minute.  I have an uncomfortable warm tingling sensation running through my body.  My stomach is turning, and my shoulders are wrapped tightly around my ears.  Thank goodness I’m able to hide my emotions fairly well.  To the naked eye, I’m strong and confident.  I will put on my smile, give my warm but firm handshake, and then I will sit down and tell them all the great things I’m able to do for them.  When I’m done, I will walk out the building with a sigh of relief.  Proud that I was able to step out of my comfort zone.  If by chance an offer comes my way, I will prepare myself for the next step.  Right now, however, all I need to do is breathe.

Anyway, I have one hour to go, so here’s hoping I don’t fall flat on my face or freeze up like a popcicle.

 

 

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7 thoughts on “Adding a Healthy Dose of Nerves to My Anxiety

  1. I know you’ll do fine because you’ve proven yourself time and again. I was gonna wish you good luck but you don’t need it. BTW when I look at my dog listening to me, I wish I could read his mind, or maybe not. He’s probably telling me to f**k off.

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  2. Well, I’ve just been sitting here trying to work out the difference between British Summer Time and the Pacific Time Zone, (and failing, because I’m pretty stupid)… but I’m assuming the interview is long past. Anyway, I’m very sure it went really well and you were suitably impressive. 🙂

    It would indeed be fabulous, and a little scary, to get inside someone’s mind for, say, an hour… not just in a telepathic sense, but to experience all the feelings that come with the thoughts that crop up. Wow.

    Nice post with plenty of food for thought. 🙂

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    1. It had past. It’s currently 3pm here but I don’t know when you’ll see this so that might not help you Any haha. The interview was ok. I’m not sure I’m all that interested, however. Yes it would be such an experience to be someone else for a bit to see the world through their eyes.

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      1. It’s just gone 11pm here (still early for an insomniac, haha) so all I have to remember to do is subtract 8… sadly my maths ain’t too good either. 😉
        Well it’s been good experience, perhaps, when the interview for a more interesting job comes along. 🙂
        I think one of the keys to creativity is to get inside someone else’s head as much as possible without actually being them — though empathy can only take us so fat!

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