Hello darkness my old friend… I’ve been zombified…. zoned out on Zoloft and Zoplicone. One day blends to the next, and I can’t tell if I’m coming or going. They say give yourself time to adjust, but I don’t think I will make it. I’m confused and turned around — I have no anxiety because I have no thoughts. I’m not void of emotions; I still feel the darkness lingering in the background, but I can’t focus enough to figure out why.
I will count one day, two, three is all I will wait. If clarity does not return, I am done. No more little yellow pill with brain zapping powers. I do not want to go through the trials and errors of medicationizing myself. If I could close my eyes to everything, I would do it right now. I’m tired and lost.
I pray that sleep will clear the fog I’m in. One more day of this, I don’t think I can take. I’m not making sense; not even to myself. All I want is peace. Peace of mind… mind at peace. Why am I so tired? Maybe tomorrow it will be ok… that’s what I will hold on to. Until tomorrow.
Phew… there’s nothing ‘wise’ to say to this… except that there’s people nearby who understand; so keep talking, if you want to… even if you’re tired and zombified and feel like you’re not making sense.
Here’s to Peace. 🙂
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Thank you. I’m a bit of a mess right now
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You’re welcome, as always: I think this is your worst time… hang on in there, my friend.
Thinking of you. 🙂 🙂
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I truly hope tomorrow brings a better day for you. Thoughts are with you.
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Thank you. I’m not going to take a pill tonight
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Thank you so much
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Be patient girl. Take your meds and let them have a chan e to worry. You and the doc can always taper the dose back some if it ends up being too much. But you need to give it some time to settle. Hugs…
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*chance to work, not chan e to worry… Sheesh! Fat fingers…
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Haha, I figured it out. I reduced the dosage a bit last night, and I will give these ones another week. I don’t think I could go longer than that the way I’m feeling.
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