REV Me UP

If you don’t use it you lose it.  SEX, I’m talking about sex.  S. E. X. — SEX.  God do I miss having sex.  I don’t know if this goes for everyone, just women, or just me, but a lack of sex has dramatically reduced my natural sex drive, which used to be extremely healthy.   For years I thought it was my age, but when other women my age told me how horny they were, I dismissed that idea.  I then assumed it was the anxiety medication, but I stopped taking my meds five months ago, and I’m still NOT rubbing up against the washer during the spin cycle.  Therefore, it’s got to be the lack of sex that is killing the drive, or….

I have another theory.  This theory is based on a sudden increase in my desire to jump some bones.  With all the change that is going on in my life, my anxiety has been really bad.  I had a mild panic attack this morning, and I don’t even know what brought it on.  What I do know is that all this anxiety is a result of me pushing myself out of my comfort zone.  It doesn’t feel good, but I do think it is long overdue.  These last few final days in my home have been super emotional for me.  So mix endorphins from the anxiety to some bittersweet emotions, and Voila — you got Ms. Horny Pants.

Coming off the medication wasn’t enough to kick start my drive.  I needed to push myself so I could feel INTENSELY.  It seems extreme emotions rev me up — who knew.  Only problem I have now is where I will be moving.  My temporary home is in my best friends basement suite.  It’s not overly private, and my friends 15 year old boy’s room is right outside one of the entrances to my suite.  This is an issue unless they have come up with some kind of silencer for vibraters.

On that note, I’m off to look at another house.  Wish me luck!