I’m surrounded by boxes and my home is starting to look void. My home of ten years will be handed over to new owners in exactly two weeks. I am doing my best to stay positive and think this is for the best, but tonight I’m sad.
My home has been my safe zone for the past decade of my life. I have no partner and no children; I am alone. Alone and soon to be homeless. I will have a place to put my things but it will not be home. Tears are falling for all the memories I will leave behind. I pray that I’ve made the right decision. My fear and anxiety make it so hard to move forward and that is why this is so hard.
I don’t know what life will look like when I no longer have the safety of these walls to protect me. What if I can’t find a place I like? What if I can’t afford it? What if i can’t stop these tears? I’m so scare and I feel so alone.
I want all my tears to flow tonight, so tomorrow I can keep moving forward. These words I wrote tonight are all that comfort me. All besides my four legged best friend.