Up Above Anxiety

Is it possible for a persons anxiety to get so high that he or she rises above it?  I think I might have.  Selling and buying property is a stressful life event.  For me, a person with generlzied anxiety disorder, the whole ordeal has been traumatic.  I went a week with no sleep and severe…

Uninspired

This week has been filled with upheaval.  My head is spinning with all the tasks that need to get done before I move into my temporary home.  Today I went to the bank to move my investment money to an accessable account, so I’m ready for when I make an offer on a new house….

Holidays in a Box

Every year my Christmas tree goes up on December 1.  I may be a single girl, but I still have my own holiday traditions.  I love the holidays; the sparkly lights, spiced scented candles, christmas tree, and stockings.  I love it all.  Now that my house is sold and I need to find a place…

Homeless in The Loops

  My HOUSE is sold!!!! After 10 long years of living the mobile home life, I’m finally moving up in the world.  OK, not the world, but the housing market.  I would have made this move years ago, but I haven’t been able to sell up until now. I’m excited, sad, anxious, stressed out, happy,…

Stuck In Panic Land

Blogging has had to take the back burner these past few days, and I miss it.  I am not only waiting to find out if the sale of my house will go through, I’m also knee deep in grievances at work.  FUN SHIT.  All I can say is thank god I’m not HR for a unionized…

Love

  I’ve had a hard week as far as emotions and anxiety goes.  Having my house up for sale has been difficult, and now I’m waiting to see if the deals a go or not — I’m thinking not.  For the average person this would be a stressful event, for a person with an anxiety…

Dogs Need Homes TOO

There is one thing a realtor needs to be and that’s professional.  Mine is not, and I’m a nut hair away from firing him.  This week has been a roller coaster of emotions; I’m tired, stressed out, and feel like crawling in to a dark hole to hide. On Tuesday night, I had a showing…

FLOG – Fear Machine 2

Holy Shit, I sold my house; I have to be out in 30 days. Time for a little freak out!!!!!!

The Fear Machine

Let me tell you something about living with generalized anxiety disorder — I don’t like it. Not even a little bit…. I just don’t.  My poor, innocent, unassuming brain is nothing more than a raging fear machine when life throws it a few challenges.  And when I say life, I mean me.  I challenge myself all the…

A Past Life

  I’m staring dumbfoundedly at my computer screen, as I’m forces to remember a past life.  A past life when I was a married woman, long, long ago.  A couple of hours ago, my ex-brother-in-law Facebook messaged me that his (and my ex-husband’s) mom was found dead.  This is sad on so many levels. I…

Forbidden

He hands me a glass of wine before taking a seat beside me on the sofa.  He’s close; very close; so close that I can smell him.  He smells clean — freshly showered.  My body starts to tremble and I can feel my face heating up.  Can he see what he’s doing to me?  We’ve been friends…

Too Old To Be an ASS

Have you ever had the urge to be BADDDDD?  Bad, baddedad dad, bad, bad?  Not criminal like bad; nothing that drastic.  I’m thinking more like badass bad. BAD ASS!  When you feel like saying to yourself “Fuck IT — LET’S HAVE SOME FUN!”  If you answered yes, we’ve got something in common.  I used to be a bad…