Fourteen days ago, I matched with a sheriff on Tinder. A tallish, tattoo’d, family loving sheriff. At least that’s what I think I know about this man. I’ve done my homework and checked his references, and so far so good. He texts me “Good morning pretty lady” when I wake, and “Sleep well pretty lady” when I crawl into bed each night. In the digital world he seems great, but how will he translate in real life? I will find out tonight.
I have a date with the sheriff, and I don’t know how to feel about it. I’m sort of excited I think, but at the same time I feel hesitant. He quit drinking a few months ago, so there won’t be a glass of wine to warm up the conversation. He hasn’t told me, yet, why he quit drinking; he said he wants to wait until we meet in person. Totally fair, but at the same time I’m not sure how I feel about this. I also know that he is living in his travel trailer while his house is being rebuilt after a home fire. I’m curious to find out if the fire has anything to do with his sobriety. Questions, questions, so many questions.
I hate to admit this, but I wish we were meeting for a beer rather than dinner. I worry my anxiety will get in the way of me being able to relax. I can already feel myself getting fidgety, restless, and uncomfortable. Should I tell him right off that I get anxious? Being upfront immediately hasn’t worked well for me in the past. However, If I don’t tell him, I worry he will think my strange behaviour is my norm. He did say he likes a little weird in his women, so maybe he will find me intriguing. Maybe my anxiety will come off as essentric or mysterious. I can only hope.
There’s always the chance that I won’t like him. Although I have a feeling I will; he’s easy to talk to at least. NOW the big question… what do I wear?