What a year 2016 has been so far. It’s been a year of change for me — Big scary emotionally charged changes.
- Return to university (part-time online) (Still in progress)
- End contact with emotionally abusive ex-boyfriend
- Close my side fitness (personal training) business
- Start a blog (Still in progress)
- Change anxiety medication
- Renovate bedroom
- Quit taking anxiety medication
- Attempt dates to find love (Still in progress)
- Quit my 8 year nicorette (nicotine gum) habit (3 weeks and counting)
My 42nd birthday is coming up in 2 weeks, and it’s just dawned on me that I might be going through a mid-life crisis.
” They say it’s your birthday
It’s my birthday too, yeah
They say it’s your birthday
We’re gonna have a good time
I’m glad it’s your birthday
Happy birthday to you” – The Beatles
If we look closely at my list of changes, It seems pretty clear that I’m on a mission to find love: sweet sweet love. Check it…
#2 – End contact with ex (obviously this needed to be done to move forward). There was no need to be holding on to a three year supposed friendship that did nothing but make me sad. Sad and broke.
# 3 – Close my business down. Between a full-time job, my own fitness routine, and school, I left myself with little to no time to date. Plus I was always tired, so dating always seemed like a chore. I now teach one class at the YMCA, which is strictly volunteer.
#5 & 7 – My medication eliminated my sex-drive. It’s hard to date when you have no sexual desire. I also felt that the meds were not working the way they used to. Depression set in, which was never really my issue before. I’m still working through this but I’m on my way to learning to cope with life medication free.
#8 – No explanation needed.
Five out of nine changes made to find love, so what do I want for my birthday?
Oh and I wouldn’t mind falling in love, or at least to find someone to start falling in love with.
There are three months left in the year 2016, and I have two things I need to focus on.
First — Finish this boring-ass course I’m doing (Management Information Systems) Seriously, this course sucks.
Second – FIND THE ONE.
The extreme emotions that went along with unmedicating myself have eased up, and I’m ready to move onward and upward.
“Wise men say… only fools rush in, but I can’t help falling in love with ________________” – Elvis Presley
Here’s hoping I can fill in the blank. CHEERS!