Attract This !#@

“You attract what you put out there.” These are the words of advice I received from an acquaintance regarding my unpleasant dating experiences.  Everyone is entitled to his or her opinion, but some people should keep their options to themselves.   I personally take offense to this useless piece of love advice, and here’s why. First,…

Life is a Battlefield

“We are all fighting our own battles in life” — Smartgirl Addiction is just another way of saying “there is something controlling me.”  I’ve been controlled by many things: food or lack of it, alcohol, drugs, sex, cigarettes, and last but not least Nicorette (nicotine gum).  I typically jump from crutch to crutch, but nicorette…

Mad Mom Love

I Love My MOMMY. My mother has a more gentle loving soul of any human being I’ve ever met.  She gives of herself to anyone who asks, and she takes nothing in return.  The best thing about my mom is how much she loves me. I have never really confided in my mom the troubles I…

The Black Cat Blue Sea Award

I’ve received a nomination for the Black Cat Blue Sea Award from a very talented writer at decodingbipolar.com.  Thank you so much for the nomination — this is only my second award nomination, so I’m feeling very flattered. I had to do some searching to find out what this award was created for, and this is…

Date Night or Fright Night

It has occured to me that my romance skills might be a little out of date and practice.  It has, in fact, been over 3.5 years since I was in a romantic relationship, so it’s safe to say, I’ve likely lost the touch: not that I had much of one to begin with. Dating is…

Keep On Keeping On

What a year 2016 has been so far.  It’s been a year of change for me — Big scary emotionally charged changes. Return to university (part-time online) (Still in progress) End contact with emotionally abusive ex-boyfriend Close my side fitness (personal training) business Start a blog (Still in progress) Change anxiety medication Renovate bedroom Quit…

Finding Fun

What do you do for fun?  I’ve been asked this questions over and over, and honestly, I don’t know how to answer it.  I can tell you what I do to fill up my time.  I can tell you what I do to make me feel productive.  I can tell you what I do because…

Hope

Hope is like the sun, which, as we journey towards it, casts the shadow of our burden behind us … It lends promise to the future and purpose to the past. It turns discouragement to determination. SAMUEL SMILES   Today I’m filled with hope!  At 3:00pm today, I will have my first psychologist appointment in…

Push & Pull: Exterminate

  It’s raining; it’s pouring, and the whole world is snoring.  BUT I’M not.  I’m living in an optical illusion… nothing is real — or is it?  Insomnia has set! Thanks to my vent rat I have lost all ability to function as a normal human being. I’m averaging about 2 hours of sleep a…

Slowing Down the Hampster Wheel

It’s 7:00am on a Sunday morning, and I’m uncharacteristically sitting up in bed writing a blog post.  I haven’t been sleeping well, so this morning instead of fighting it, I got up and soaked in a hot tub.  My whole body ached through the night, due to my usual over-training, so the bath was a…

Come Feel The NOIZE

Not too long ago, I wrote about falling in love with a rockstar… Play Me A Song.  Now said rockstar does not know me, and from what I’ve been told he has a girlfriend, still that didn’t stop me from crushing on the blue eyed song bird.  There was something about him that caught my attention, so…

Solitude

Whenever I’m feeling overwhelmed, I seek solitude.  Peace and quiet — aloneness.  What’s strange, however, is it’s loneliness that tends to overwhelm me.  This is somewhat of a catch-22, but I’ve yet to figure out a solution for this predicament.  Regardless, I’m in currently in a space where I just want to be alone. I haven’t…