Makes anxiety go away? Well not really, but it does keep me from dwelling on it. That has been my strategy for the past couple weeks. Humour has always been my favorite coping mechansim because laughter is the only kind of medication I’m on now. Look at me all medication and fancy free.
I made the mistake of Googling to much when I started tappering off my anxiety meds. I wanted to be prepared for what I was going to go through, so I read blogs and articles related to anxiety, discontinuation syndrome, and ADHD. What a death sentence that was. The more I read, the more I paid attention to every sensation and thought I was having. I was gluttonous — a true glutton for punishment.
Then early one morning, just as the sun was rising, I said to myself “Hey you; ya you, the one sitting there getting anxious about your anxiety, what the h*ll are you doing?” At first I wasn’t sure if I was talking to myself or not, but when I realize I was in fact talking to me, I listened up. Curious minds want to know if I started talking back, and the answer is “Obviously.” I’m a good conversationalist, and I really enjoy talking to myself. Just ask me, myself, or I; they will all tell you the same thing: That girl’s got good talk.
Now, this little unmedicated chicky is walking around with a shit-eating grin on her face, and talking to herself in dark corners. This means only one thing: I’m managing my anxiety just fine without meds — I’m barely crazy at all. Seriously, I’m not crazy; I have some mood disorders, but so what. I’ve got my sense of humour, my dog, and a good pair of jeans — that’s all any girl could ask for. OK, you got me, I also need wine, and every once in awhile an Ativan, but other than that….. oh, and chocolate, sometimes I need chocolate, but that’s it. MONEY, I totally forgot, I also need money. A sense of humour, my dog, a good pair of jeans, wine, Ativan, chocolate, and money: That’s all this girl needs in life. Besides my friends, family, and music. Other than that, I don’t need a thing in this world. Except my car and house.
Here’s to living simply — Cheers!
“A good laugh overcomes more difficulties and dissipates more dark clouds than any other one thing.” – Laura Ingalls Wilder