Shoulds and Shouldn’ts

Why are we, as in humans, so damn hard on ourselves?  I suppose I shouldn’t speak for all of human kind, so I will rephrase.  Why do some of us expect ourselves to be perfect.  No one is perfect, and no one expects us to be perfect.  Yet, people like myself have a hard time…

Morning Reloaded

VIBRATORS.  Love them; have them.  Ok, restarting my day on a much more positive note.  If you had the pleasure of reading my last post, you probably sensed I had a bad morning.  I’ve blogged about it, so now I’m ready to move on.  Back to my original thought — Vibrators.  They truly are a…

Blowing Off Steam

  This morning has been one big disaster, and I’m ready to write it all out of my system.  Dealing with my anxiety unmedicated has many challenges, but one of my main sources of anxiety is coming from my best friend.  I hate to admit this, but now that I have, I need to figure…

Play Me A Song

Musicians.  Such beautiful creatures.  Before I married my ex-husband, I had a string of guitar playing, long haired boyfriends.  Those were the most intense, yet volatile, relationships I have ever had.  I loved them; I hated them, but one thing was certain, I couldn’t get enough of them.   I wish, that,  I knew what…

Off To The Lake

   A short wait for the ferry to return to work me away to a lake house party.  There’s live music, Indian food, boating, and great conversation waiting for me on the other side of this beautiful lake.   My anxiety almost kept me from taking the 1.5 hour drive to this oasis, but I…

Keeping The Stubble

I took a chance on love, but it shall not be.  Dating rule book is now back in effect.  Mr. Recently Separated flaked on our date tomorrow, and I doubt he was even going to tell me. I’m a planner, I must know what I’m doing, when I’m doing it, and how I will be…

A Smile A Day

  Makes anxiety go away?  Well not really, but it does keep me from dwelling on it.  That has been my strategy for the past couple weeks.  Humour has always been my favorite coping mechansim because laughter is the only kind of medication I’m on now.  Look at me all medication and fancy free. I…

Oops…. Forgot The Title

  Alert the media — Breaking News: you heard it here first!  A very rare occurance is taking place August 26, 2016 (mark the date on your calendars). This Friday at approximately 6:30 p.m. Pacific Time, I, Ms. SmartyG, am going on a date. I will give you a moment to take it all in.  …

Morning Glory

Transformations can be little changes that make perfect little impacts.  I chose to skip my 5am run today in exchange for an hour long sleep in. It was spectacular; and now I sit at the cafe, sipping my Almond Milk latte.  A time out before work.   Humorous chit chat with the regulars = a…

A Fleeting Moment

   There’s no reason to not sit back, relax, and let go of life’s everyday stresses on an ordinary Tuesday night. You need no reason for celebration other than the breath that’s been gifted to you.  It’s acceptable to leave the daily chores undone, as they won’t shed a tear for the neglect.  Wasted minutes…

Help ME!!!!!

I’ve changed my mind; I don’t want to do this… for the love of god will someone please give me a piece of nicorette!  What have I done; why am I even doing this to myself? Yesterday it all seemed such a great idea: Transformation — quit chewing my nicorette gum.  WTF!  I hate this….

All Aboard The Crazy Train

Welcome to my week of transformation.  Last week’s goal of FUN, FUN, FUN, (till her daddy takes her T-Bird away) has inspired a new trend.  Each week, I will decide on a simple self-care project, which will include daily activities that I must perform.  I do believe that a healthy mind needs constant growth and stimulation….