Sometimes receiving bad news is a blessing in disguise. This past Sunday, I found out that my 2007 Hyundai Accent needs a replacement motor. Very frustrating considering I have kept her well-maintained and she only has 127,000km on her. I did not take the news well, as I am currently making a serious effort to pay down my debt. I’ve been in a bit of a funk lately, so my initial reaction to this news was defeat. However, I am not one to sit around and feel sorry for myself, so I have spent the past two days sourcing out solutions to this problem.
First, I have an appointment booked with my bank to re-evaluate my debt allocation. I would like to see if I can find a better pay-down solution, which will also allow me to borrow a small amount to put towards my vehicle situation. Once I understand how much money I have to work with, I will weigh out my options.
Secondly, I am getting a second opinion. A friend referred me to a mechanic who is willing to check my car over at no cost; I’m very thankful for this. If it turns out I can repair the car for a reasonable price, my problem’s solved.
Slightly jumping ahead of myself, I have decided if I must buy something new, I want a truck. There are many reasons why I shouldn’t buy a truck: more money on gas, tires will be more expensive, not as easy to parallel park, harder to get into. However, I think my reason for wanting one outweighs the cons.
A truck is the button I need to reset this little funk I’ve been in. I need to give my life a little facelift, and what I have decided I need is declutterfication (is that a word?) I want to get rid of all my STUFF. Old furniture, snowboarding equipment, 20 year old rollerblades, old printers, camping equipment, dog kennels, etc. I’m not a hoarder, and I probably have less stuff than the average person, but lately, I feel cluttered and sufficated by things. Items I keep for “just in case.” Just in case I decide to snowboard again after 8 years, possibly I will put new wheels on my rollerblades and go for a ride, maybe I will camp. No, I will most likely not do any of these things. I only snowboarded because my ex-husband wanted me to, I prefer going for a run over rollerblading, and camping will not be done unless there’s a house on wheels coming with me.
It’s time to shed my belongings that hold no value to me. Rid myself of objects that are reminders of who I used to be and not who I have become. I want to feel light and free — I want to press the reset button on my life.
This epiphany is a direct result of my broken down car. An event that brought a great amount of anxiety, also brought a new direction and goal. I have good and bad days dealing with anxiety and depression, and today is a good day. I believe that this new goal will bring many more good days. The one thing I am most proud of is my ability to achieve my goals. Goals give me some kind of direction in life, which keeps my mind focused and less anxious.
Now — figure out how to get a truck!