Voices; Voices — Everywhere

Every morning she wakes newly optimistic that today is the day her life will change.  Before she leaves her bed, Ms. Optimist greets her: “Good Morning — welcome to today, did you know that today is going to be something special?”  She smiles at the thought of a brand new day; a new beginning; a day of…

Harmful Misdiagnosis

Anxious thoughts run through my brain on a very continual basis; they have for as far back as I remember.  In my early 30s, I was finally diagnosed with an anxiety disorder.  The inital diagnosis was both a blessing and a curse. I was going through a divorce when I received my first diagnosis.  I truly…

Secret Addiction

Addiction is usually a word people associate with drugs, alcohol, or tobbaco.  There are also many cases of people suffering food, porn, internet, or TV addictions.  I on the other had have an addiction (or habit) that is fairly unuasual.  When I turned 27 years old, I gave up smoking.  I quit cold turkey, and I…

What is Beauty

  What is beauty?  This is a question I ask myself often.  Like many women (and men), I often tend to compare my looks to other people.  I long for eveything I do not have such as straight thick hair, a clear smooth complexion, a petite body frame, long eyelashes… etc. Why, I wonder, do…

I Hate Writing Essays

I never thought I would be writing essays at the age of 41, but here I am agonizing my way through an expository paper.  I did not go to university after high school and my education (or lack of) has always made me feel self-conscious.  In my early 20s, I took an administrative/bookkeeping program at…

A Picture Say’s A Thousand Words

Pictures are meant to keep our memories alive forever.  I have a shoe box of pictures, most of which were taken by my ex-husband.  I was sifting through my photo box the other day, and it occured to me that I do not have one printed picture of my life from the last 10 years….

An Office With a View

The view from my office is nothing short of spectacular.  I work in a building that sits atop the city, which is surrounded by miles of mountains and sky.  It’s amazing I get any thing done with these floor-to-ceiling windows that make up the whole two floors of the building.  I remember the day of my…

Positive Thinking Wisdom

I’m a true believer in the power of positive thinking, as I’ve seen the results of it in my own life.  Yet, sometimes I forget this little bit of wisdom, and I need to be reminded. In general I would say I’m a pretty positive person; I learned years ago that negative thoughts bring on negative…

Anticipation

Happily ever after – not my usual train of thought before going on a first date.  For the most part, my biggest first date wish is – survival.  Today, however, is not like most pre-date anxiety.  The feeling I have is completely foreign to me; hard to explain.  Could it be I’m feeling excited about it? How this date came…

But Only a Dream

I’m standing in front of the house I used to live in with my ex-husband.  The air is chilly, and ominous clouds hover above.  There is someone standing behind me; I feel a jolt of energy run through my body… All of a sudden I am standing in the kitchen, and I realize the house…

Tax time blues

I’m not much of a poet, but I feel passionately about this topic… so here goes nothing. It is that time of year again; when tax time shows it’s head Expense receipts I need to find; a task I always dread No matter what I tell myself, my return must not be late There’s nothing worse…